The Best Gift That I Gave in This Year
People usually recall the best gift they have received but in my case, I remember the best gift that I gave to someone, because I have learned preparing a gift for someone I like is pleasurable. Unlike others, I feel happiness giving rather than receiving a gift. Recently, the best gift that I gave to someone is a portrait that was for the girl I liked. Everyone might have a time they prepared a gift for someone they liked, and they might be very nervous, or feel hesitation about the recipients. I experienced this moment too, and it was one of moments which made me more mature than before. I liked her since, I met her from my English group gathering. She was a tutor and I was one of her students. Her name was Lindsay, she was looked like famous Korean idol and her kind personality which listens others carefully made me attracted to her. Thus, she was significantly popular with guys, and to the extent that I thought “do I deserve her?”. I considered her as a girl too good for me. However, more than I thought she had quite a lot of common tastes of music and similar experiences like bullied in school. These common things made us me got close easily. While we were gradually getting close, I had a chance to drink a beer with her at bar. She confided a lot of happens that occurred with her ex and since I just broke up with ex, I could sympathize with her. The mood was quite romantic and she seemed more lovely. After we finished our beers and sausages came out for our side dish, we left the bar. Snow was coming and we had to put umbrella together and with excuse that it is too late, I brought her back to bus stop. As we were walking, snow fell like the movie scene and we had a great conversation. Moreover, she felt cold so, I took off my muffler and muffled her neck sincerely. All the situations formed romantic atmosphere and also, I was indescribably flirted. After that moment, she texted me first for a while. Therefore, I thought I could be with her and I made an appointment with her to watch movie after my English lesson. However, her ex-boyfriend suddenly contacted her and she left me after lesson ended, she went to her former boyfriend at the day I was supposed to watch movie with her. She still loved her ex-boyfriend and I had to step back from her. If I truly liked her, I knew I have to forget her, I could not. A month later, I had a chance to fly to Europe, traveling by myself through six countries. Even after, she rejected me, I wanted to appeal her still I like her, so I agonized and agonized about a great gift for her. While I was seriously thinking about her gift, I remembered that once she mentioned on Facebook that she wants her portrait, so I went to Monmatre Hill in France, the place where all the good artists gathered. From the selecting the artist to giving the portrait to her, it was a series of hardships. One artist swore at me as saying ‘Fuxx kid’ because I did not select him, and the artist that I chose deceived me by overcharging me two times than original price of the portrait. Moreover, I had to carry that portrait during the whole journey. It was horrible but I was happy since, the portrait was well drawn enough with purple pastels as much as she will like. Finally, I came back from Europe, and I ought to give her the portrait. However, I was scared to give it to her on account of the fact that she already had a boyfriend and it was obviously peculiar to give her the portrait in this circumstance. I could not just keep delaying this and I did not have much time because I had to come America, so I decided to give it. Luckily, regardless of the fact that I was not with her, she appreciated about my sincerity that I remembered her wish. I was happy as well, but I determined to cut my one-way love for her because I did not have much time and she already had a boyfriend. Moreover, she knew that I loved her. I was happy that she became happy due to me, yet it was meaningless to continue my affection and unprofitable for both of us. It was the right time for me to quit my affection from the moment I gave her this gift. It was really hard for me to quit her yet, I was really happy since I could give her a gift on her wish list and so, I could think about ending my affection. Since I came here, she contacts me and leaves some comments on my Facebook page. Every time she contacts me, my head is stirred up with thoughts of her. Nevertheless, I do not regret giving the portrait to her and then stepping back from her. Thanks to the gift, I could keep my one-way love as one of my beautiful memories and I could quit her without lingering affection. My affection ended up with a little bit of bitterness, but I learned I can be happy to choose a gift for someone I like. Due to my gift and her, I became more mature and learned I could not force her to like me, regardless of how much I liked her. Still, when I close my eyes, and think of her, I often see the portrait because I prepared it with sincerity and I cannot forget the smile when she received it.
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Kayla Horta
11/21/2016 07:32:29 pm
I thought this blog post was superb! I think it's so sweet that you made her the portrait, and that you found the courage to still give it to her despite her having a boyfriend. I am reminded of my found courage when I asked my boyfriend out for the first time, and that his reaction (although extremely delayed because had no idea what to do...) was extremely memorable, much like your tutor's after you gave her the portrait. This post is both happy and sad, and I find you to be a very sincere person!
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